A better me...

...can be found somewhere. I think.
I am conflicted. Is it wrong to feel that I want to continue my education, to a master's degree, even if that degree does not mean big bucks later? I want to help contribute to my family, even while the kids are young, because at some point, they will both be in school, and I will be sitting looking at the wall for many hours.
I guess the point is, I love to write, I have all these stories in my head. I am not sure I am any good at it al all, but I love the fact that I can give it a shot. I can always be a reporter, or edit something. But is this all I am. I would love to teach on the college level, have a great job that makes a difference in someone's life, have a job or career that I can be proud to say is mine.
I guess I worry that if we open up businesses, I will be stuck like my mom was, fleshing out my dad's next business venture, while he moved on to the next idea. There were so many years of new businesses that my mom had to run day in and day out. My dad never worked at them, just thought them up, and it really annoyed my mom. I don't want that. I don't want to be in my retirement age thinking I have really done nothing with my life to enrich it.
So I am conflicted. Stay firm about how much involvement and what kind of involvement I will have in our business, and get some degree that makes it possible to teach even basic college courses, or stay firm and get some job I really love. Or cave and work everyday at something I will do to the best of my ability, but that sucks my soul.
And what if I do write a book and get published, will that be enough to counterbalance that?
Can I have it all? I just don't want to regret my adult life, and close myself off to options while I am still young enough to do them. I always wanted to be called Dr., not the medical kind (can we say math) but the scholarly kind. My mom has her Master's and it really helps in her pay bump and opportunities.
That's it! Some way, some how I will have it all, make money, feel fulfilled in my life, and help my family make money. I can do anything darn it. I am a mother, we multitask before we even get out of bed!