I miss my peeps!!!!

That's all, just felt like I haven't seen any of my girls in forever!! We have to get together soon!!!

There is a gate, I promise!!

There is a gate, we just didn't put it back up after he woke up from his nap in time. usually we do it as we come off the stairs, but we both thought the other would be getting it...big duh, never assume.

And his cold has gotten worse...102...poor sick babies, now him and coco's little sister madison...
He tossed and turned so much, and only wanted me, so we both slept on the floor an a pallet I made. Humidifier humming along, and the sounds of Safah coughing in the other room through the monitor.

We have ordered a custom permanent gate to fit our stairs, it will be here tuesday! ;) The problem with rentals and exagerated stairs!! So no fear...he is not going anywhere near the stairs again!! Now if I can just go potty without a papoose...! ;) I haven't even put in my contacts yet. The school people saw me in glasses!!! ugh!! but they are cool new glasses. soooo.

Milestone: Deen turns 10 months

Well Deenie is 10 months old, MA. And he is sick with a cold that he got from his sister, who got it from her cousin who got it from her Dad, my bro. Did ya get that?

So to put it in context, he is being a little terror. And he won't let me put him down for a second. But he does have a fever and just wants momma's good hugs. ;) Who can argue with that?

Deenie stats:
20 lbs. He stood for a few seconds the past couple of days, then he gently lowers himself to the ground. I don't even think he knew he was standing at first. He was busy yelling and laughing at his Nani.
He crawls so fast now...no new teeth. He really understands the word "no" but he still likes to test me a few times to make sure I am watching, or to see if he can get away with something.
His excema looks better, well not right now. Whenever he gets sick, it flares up a little more than usual.
He gets really mad if we are eating and he is not. Even if he just had his own dinner. So we put him in his seat and he munches on Cheerios or banana pieces or whatever we are eating that he can have.
Still has seperation anxiety and stranger anxiety.
Still yells at people to get their attention.

And unfortuantely, is too fast and adventurous for his own good. My heart is still in my throat at this one, Deenie fell down about 4 wood stairs on Tuesday. The gate wasn't back in place yet and in the literally 1 minute that everyone had turned, Safah went upstairs to play in her room and he thought he would join her.
Next thing we hear was bump, bump, bump, bump, bump (five of the worst sounds I have ever heard and I will never forget). I scooped a crying Deenie up and just held him. I know I should have let his lie there for a moment to determine any injuries, but hey my baby was screaming. Anyway, we called the Dr. and they told us what to look for, but that is he stopped crying after a minute, then he was more than likely fine, just scared.
I checked for bumps and bruises like I would find gold or something. I had to go do grocery for dinner later and I called back like 3 times in 30 minutes to ask about him. MA he was and is fine. And he got all the mommy lap time he wanted!!!
But poor Safah, she was so scared that she hid in her room, so I went to find her and gave her mommy hugs too. Then walked her over to her brother, who was with Waseem. And she asked a few questions about what happened, then sat down and hugged him. I was already crying, but that just did it, so I held both my babies and watched some random science program.

And if there is a funny part. Deenie is fine MA, and wants to climb the stairs again. Such a boy!!!

Hormones...leave me alone!!!

****MEN...THE FOLLOWING IS A FULLY GIRLY GYN ENTRY. NOT REALLY FOR GUYS. YOU HAVE BEEN GIVEN FULL NOTICE...;)****








Ok, gotta tell my horrible birth control story. Those darm hormones.... So I have been taking this birth control for about 4-5 months. It was the generic of the one I have taken for almost 10 or 15 years....and I never had a problem. The generic Balziva (the regular formulation is called Ovcon35) has given me soooo many problems.

MASSIVE mood swings ( the week before my period was suppose to start I was snippy and pissy--even to myself---that is bad when you are think...dude I am in a bad mood...why?, lethargia (I have been exhausted--last 3 weeks I have not really even worked out), bloating ( bad), hair shedding, appetite loss, contact problems--(I even got my eyes checked I couldn't figure out whymy eyes were so red, irritated, and blurry.), anxiety--nervousness--(I have no nails anymore), and my periods went from 6 days to maybe 2.

In short...do not take this. I did some research and instead of a small percentage of women having reactions, MOST have these reactions...that is the norm...they all said Ovcon worked perfectly for years for them, then within 2-3 months (like me) they had problems with the generic. Some had silver dollar size patches of hair loss....

so I took myself off of it Saturday...and today is monday...3 weeks before my period should start and what started to day? Hello....it is heavy and the craps are pretty sharp. But I almost welcome it. Better cramps that I can take Motrin for, than hair loss that I need a wig for right?

I may not take another pill. I started taking them to help with debilitating cramps while I was in college, but they have not been that bad for years. So why bother...Except the whole double digit weight of my kids problem. So what do I do now? What can I try or use that i would have to worry about more munchkins right this moment? Suggestions? ;) Some say the patch. The ring is not gonna happen--I know that about myself already. What else? An IUD....the doctor says only if I won't have another kid within 5 years. So that is not the answer. Give me your thoughts ladies...

9 Months and Counting MA

Here with his 5 month old cousin Zohaib. I promise Aneesa and I did not plan the outfits. We packed in different states, but Carter's style knows no state boundaries. ;)





So Deenie is now 9 months old today, and the one thing...or maybe 2 things that I can say stand out right now. We have had 2 and a half days of a pretty clear complexion (MA). Not clear clear, but clear for Deen, which is not that red. And he has turned a corner from being fine playing on his own, even if we are in an adjacent room, to crying the minute we even turn away from him. My feet cannot point in another direction, before he starts wailing. And the minute I pick him up, which is still no more than before, he buries his forehead into my neck and holds on tight, like he has not seen me if ages. He does this to Waseem too.
I wonder if part of it is being over sensitized with family this summer. We went to MD this weekend, and it was even a little much for me, since my sis-in-laws in-laws were also in town. That equals a crap load of people.
I also think he is use to his sister and cousin being around. They drove me nuts for 4 weeks, but they kept his entertained and ambitious to follow them around the house. So I am glad they are in school, and he is missing everyone! Poor baby! What will happen when I go back to work? My heart will break! I don't think Safah was this clingy. Well I know she wasn't. She could play for hours on her own. I had to check on her to make sure she was fine because she was so quiet. Of course she is not quiet now...or ever! ;)

Maryland on my mind...

Esha and Safah (the bunny?)

We had fun in MD this past weekend. A quick trip before Safah started school on today. Her cousins ( the 5, and 7 year olds) love her, and vice versa. They play, then fight, then change loyalties, then play, then cry when the day is over and one of them goes home. Next time, I think I will have to institute a group sleepover so Arooj won't cry that Safah is not goin home right then to stay with her, and Esha won't cry later that Safah is leaving for the night and can't stay. ;( But when the camera comes out, it is all smiles. ;)
Two of my nephews ( second oldest Jawad and youngest Zohaib (Z baba))


Safah chillin' at Dadi's house.

Another kid!

Scared ya huh???

It is funny when the older generation says you should have more kids when you are clutching your infant to you.
We are in Maryland this weekend and we have been told that 2 kids is not enough. My dear hubby reminds people that we have, or I have hecka big kids. What compares to my 1 kids is 2 of theirs. And the next could equal 3 or their kids....at 5 pounds each.
The funny thing is, I say I want more, but as Waseem reminds me, each kid takes such a toll on a woman's body. He sees it with his mom. 9 kids and your body (without GREAT genes and surgery) is never going to be the same. Joints, muscles, skin, shape etc. And that is with 5lb kids.
I would love to have another, not anytime soon of course since Deen is only 8 months. But in a year or 2 maybe. But then you have the worry, and Drs have said this that the next could easily be 13-15 pounds. That is like triplets, that is hard on a body, and I am a small person.
My family is absolutely against me having another. They worry big time that I will have worse nerve pain and pack pain that won't go away next time with the months of physical therapy I have done. Waseem says the same thing. But from the taking care of them once they are here point of view. Another girl and that is another shaadi, either way, it is another college education and activities and etc, etc, etc.
So what is left. Adoption? Waseem and I both say sure. I would love to adopt. I just wonder how other people will treat my child. Would I have to stop associating with some family and friends because they cannot treat that child the same as my biological ones. Cause I would kick their A** if that happened.
So hmmm. When Deenie is 1 or 1.5, maybe I will revisit this topic. At the moment, baby needs Dudu, and only Mamma has the right touch. ;)